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31 October 2015

Jae Hyon Si Anak Kucing & Binatang Peliharaan Lainnya

Alkisah ada satu kucing liar betina yang demen banget tinggal di halaman belakang rumah. Terutama pas dia lagi hamil. -__-" Jadi selama masa kehamilan, si kucing betina ini selalu tinggal di halaman belakang rumah sampai dia melahirkan. Dia udah beberapa kali diam-diam melahirkan anak-anak kucingnya di taman belakang. Luar biasa jg si betina ini loh, sekali melahirkan ga cuma satu yg keluar anaknya. Tapi bisa ada 3 sampai 4 anak sekaligus. Dan ga cuma sekali aja ngelahirin, dia udah beberapa kali melahirkan anak2 hasil hubungan gelapnya dengan kucing2 jantan di luar sana yang pernah saya temui.

Nah masalahnya, abis dia melahirkan si betina ini ga langsung pergi. Tapi dia suka bikin heboh satu rumah. Pernah sewaktu-waktu dia diem2 masuk ke rumah ketika pintu terbuka lebar dan tidak ada yg menyadari, lalu membawa serta anak-anaknya yang baru aja dilahirkan dan diumpetin entah dimana. Alhasil kita kelimpungan nyariin dimana itu anak-anaknya diumpetin, karena tiba2 ada suara meong-meong saling bersahutan di tengah heningnya suasana rumah. Bener-bener deh si betina ini, diam2 menghanyutkan. Mana galak banget lagi, tiap diusir malah pengen nyakar. Galakan dia daripada yang punya rumah. -___-"

Setelah bisa kita temukan dimana anak-anaknya diumpetin, sayang sekali ada satu atau dua yang ga bisa bertahan hidup. Entah karena ketemu tikus besar pas diumpetin atau karena kekurangan gizi. Terus ga lama setelah itu, karena saudara2nya ada yang tewas alhasil anak2nya yang lain jadi sedih dan ga lama kemudian mereka juga ikut tewas. Tragis sekaliii, tapi si betina ini pantang menyerah. Ga lama setelah kehilangan semua anak-anaknya, si betina bunting lagi!!

Kali ini alhamdulillah dari sekian banyak anaknya yang lahir, akhirnya ada jg satu yang bisa bertahan hidup. Sisanya kalah oleh seleksi alam. Si anak kucing ini akhirnya saya kasih nama Jae Hyon, sesuai dengan nama aktor favorit saya yang lagi naik daun waktu itu. Hahahaa..... Si Jae Hyon ini lucu bangeeet, warnanya kuning belang-belang coklat. Satu keluarga saya suka manggil dia Si Kuning. Klo mama saya manggil di Si Kalung, karena dia dikasih kalung sama mama saya buat pemanis. Hahaha....

Jae Hyon sewaktu kecil

Waktu si Jae Hyon masih kecil emang lucunya maksimal, rasanya pengen diajak main terus. Tapi pas agak gedean dikit, si Jae Hyon ini mulai annoying. Selalu nempel kemana-mana kita pergi, terus ngeong-ngeong mulu. Rusuh deh pokoknya. Nah suatu hari, si Jae Hyon ini bener-bener ngeselin karena udah mulai nakal suka masuk-masuk ke dalam rumah. Beberapa kali saya pengen buang si Jae Hyon ini keluar biar dia gabung aja sama kucing-kucing liar lainnya di luar sana, siapa tau klo di luar dia bisa dapet makanan lebih banyak dari tetangga-tetangga sebelah atau dari sisa-sisa makanan di tempat sampah. Tapi sama mama saya ga pernah dibolehin, mama saya suka kasihan karena masih kecil. Nah kebetulan waktu itu mama saya lagi ga ada di rumah, si betina mamanya Jae Hyon juga lagi ga ada di halaman belakang. Kebetulan nih saya pikir, langsung aja si Jae Hyon saya bawa keluar terus saya lepas di depan jalan rumah saya.

Kejam juga sih kalo dipikir-pikir, hehe abis nakal banget sih si Jae Hyon ini. Satu rumah suka kesel karena dia suka nempel-nempel kemana aja kita pergi. Tapi entah kenapa malam harinya saya merasa sangat bersalah. Mama saya juga langsung terlihat sedih seharian pas saya kasi tahu kalo si Jae Hyon udah saya buang keluar. Kata mama saya dia seperti mendengar suara ngeong-ngeong si Jae Hyon dari luar. Mungkin Jae Hyon kedinginan :( Duh saya jadi khawatir semalaman itu, mana si betina mamanya Jae Hyon juga terlihat kelimpungan pas balik ke rumah dan ngeliat anaknya udah ga ada. Hiksss... maafkan daku Jae Hyon...... T___T

Hari itu saya bener-bener merasa bersalah, belum pernah saya merasa semenyesal itu sebelumnya. Lalu keesokan harinya saya bangun tidur seperti biasa. Tapi kala itu ada sedikit rasa hampa di hati, hahaa.... Seperti kehilangan belahan jiwa, wkwkk..... Pas saya ke halaman belakang, tiba-tiba ada yang membuat saya terkejut. Si Jae Hyon ada lagi di situuu, hahahaa..... Ternyata dia balik lagi ke rumah dibawa sama si betina mamanya. Kyknya si betina mendengar suara ngeong-ngeong si Jae Hyon di malam hari, lalu keluar nyariin. Untung ketemu, dan entah kenapa dibawa lagi ke rumah saya. Fiuuuh, saya pura-pura kesal di depan yang lain karena si Jae Hyon dateng lagi. Tapi sebenernya dalam hati saya merasa lega juga akhirnya dia bisa balik ke rumah. Hehehee..... *jadi malu, malu-malu kucing* :"D


Jae Hyon dan si betina mamanya

Sekarang si Jae Hyon udah agak besar, dia udah ngerti setelah diajarin dikit-dikit. Dia udah ga suka nempel-nempel lagi kayak dulu. Dan kalo kita lagi makan, dia udah ga pernah bawel lagi pengen ikutan makan. Dia bakal nunggu dengan manis sampai kita selesai makan, baru kita kasih sisa-sisa makanannya buat dia. Yang paling lucu itu kalau kita abis pergi keluar rumah, si Jae Hyon pasti dengan setia menunggu di depan teras sampai kita balik. Nah pas kita udah sampai depan pager, dia langsung nyamperin seperti menyambut kita datang. Hahaa, ngegemesin banget.

Jae Hyon sudah agak besar

Belum lama belakangan ini, si betina mamanya Jae Hyon bunting lagi dan melahirkan anak-anaknya seperti biasa. Anak-anaknya yang baru warnanya abu-abu belang-belang putih. Mirip sama si betina mamanya Jae Hyon. Anaknya ada dua yang bertahan hidup, tapi ga lama akhirnya yang satu mati entah kenapa. Jadi sekarang cuma ada satu yang hidup nemenin si Jae Hyon. Mereka suka main bareng dan akur banget ga pernah berantem.

Sebenernya satu keluarga ga pernah ada rencana buat melihara si anak-anak kucing yang dibawa si betina ke rumah. Tapi karena kasihan dan udah nyaman juga anak-anaknya di halaman belakang, akhirnya sama mama saya dipelihara juga. Pernah sewaktu-waktu ada kucing jantan warna kuning, bulunya tebel banget keren seperti kucing Garfield, tiba-tiba dateng ke halaman belakang rumah. Kayaknya si Garfield ini bapak dari anak-anaknya si betina, karena pas dia dateng dia elus-elus si Jae Hyon dan adiknya. Kita sih seneng-seneng aja klo mereka bisa kumpul bareng sekeluarga di halaman belakang, hahaa, tapi alhamdulillah si betina dan si jantan sadar diri ga mau lama-lama tinggal di belakang. Si betina setelah selesai menyusui dan melihat anaknya udah agak gedean dikit, pasti dia pergi keluar entah kemana. Nanti baru balik ke rumah kalau dia bunting lagi. Si jantan juga, dia cuma dateng sesekali aja, ga pernah sampai nginep seharian. Hahaa, paling cuma mampir sejam dua jam buat ngeliat anak-anaknya abis itu pergi lagi. Ada-ada aja ya kelakuan kucing, kocak juga kalo dipikir-pikir.

Happy Kitty Family
(ada si jantan kucing Garfield, diduga bapaknya si anak-anak kucing)

Sebenernya ini bukan pertama kali keluarga saya memelihara binatang. Waktu saya masih kecil dulu, pas saya masi duduk di bangku Taman Kanak-Kanak (TK), kami pernah memelihara anjing. Waktu itu keluarga saya belum begitu ngerti agama, hehee, jadi entah kenapa orang tua saya memutuskan untuk memelihara dua ekor anjing di rumah. Namanya Blackie dan Lessie. Karena saya masih kecil, saya ga begitu ingat kenangan apa saja yang pernah kami miliki dengan dua ekor anjing tersebut. Tapi seingat saya, mereka ga pernah boleh masuk ke dalam rumah. Jadi cuma boleh tinggal di teras luar rumah saja. Dan dulu ada juga Burung Kakak Tua, tapi saya lupa siapa namanya. Burungnya lucu bisa ngomong, hehe, suka kita gangguin kalo lagi iseng.

Lalu ketika saya udah agak besar, sewaktu saya duduk di bangku Sekolah Dasar (SD) kami pernah memelihara Kelinci dan Iguana. Tapi dua-duanya ga bertahan lama, akhirnya entah bagaimana keduanya tewas ga lama setelah di pelihara di rumah.

Pas saya duduk di bangku SMP, kakak saya memutuskan untuk memelihara Hamster. Tapi ga bertahan lama juga nasibnya.

Lalu pas saya beranjak SMA, binatang peliharaan di rumah semakin variatif layaknya kebun binatang. Hahahaa... Kita sempat punya :
- dua ekor Ayam Kalkun (namanya si Jack & Emma)
- seekor Ayam Betina (namanya Carsini)
- sepasang ayam kampung (namanya Kocar & Kacir)
- dua ekor Bebek (namanya si Kwik & Kwek)
- dua ekor Angsa (lupa siapa namanya)
- dan satu ekor Burung Hantu kecil (namanya Hedwig)

Hahaa, rame banget yaaa. Itu semua dipelihara di halaman belakang rumah. Tiap pagi rame banget suaranya, si ayam pada berkokok sahut-sahutan, si Kalkun juga bunyinya kluk-kluk-kluk-kluk, si bebek & angsa bunyi ngoik-ngoik, dan si burung hantu entah gimana bunyinya ajaib dah pokoknya. Hahahaa, ga ada alarm semerdu mereka kalo lagi sahut-sahutan. Tapi saya paling ga berani megang binatang-binatang itu, yang berani megang cuma mama saya aja. Saya dan yang lainnya sukanya cuma gangguin aja, terutama gangguin si Kalkun. Hehee, kalo udah marah paling lucu soalnya. Janggutnya langsung merah, mukanya jadi biru, dan langsung ngembangin bulu-bulunya kayak ngajak berantem. Hahaa, kocak banget ngeliatnya. Ini dia si kalkun dan si ayam jago yang suka kejar-kejaran.

Si Kalkun & Si Ayam Jago

Si Kwik - Kwek

Sekarang akhirnya dari sekian banyak binatang peliharaan, tinggal dua ekor kucing aja di belakang rumah. Yaitu Jae Hyon dan adiknya yg saya beri nama Lee Sang Yoon. Yah begitulah kisah binatang peliharaan di rumah. Oya sama ada satu lagi, sekarang ada Tokek di plafon rumah yang suka bunyi-bunyi sendiri. Wkwkw...

Oke deh sekian dulu cerita selingan tentang para penghuni kebun belakang yang udah seperti keluarga sendiri. Kapan-kapan cerita lagi kalo ada penghuni kebon yang bertambah. Xixixiii, see yaaa.......


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21 October 2015

The Last Words


A few days ago I just browsed my old pictures in my mobile phone and I found my dad's last message to me which I screen captured so I won't lose it. I miss my dad a lot :((((( From all of my family members, the one I can comfortably talk to is only my dad. Now I feel really so much lonely, not because I'm all alone. I'm surrounded by many people, but none of them I can talk to. It's very hard to find someone who can understand our mind and have the same way of thinking, also even harder to have someone who would understand what we feel.

My dad texted me on the day he passed away. But I didn't reply it because I was about to meet him again in the next few days. Who knows that it would be his last words to me. Anyhow I feel grateful at least my dad said good bye to me before he really went for good. Actually a week before he's gone, he sent me off to airport. We sat on a bench while drinking coffee. I ordered a bitter coffee due to my diet restriction, but I didn't like it so I gave it to my dad. And he finished it. Then after he finished my coffee, he walked me to the boarding gate. It's the last time I saw him and said my last good bye. All I can remember is he's smiling to me and waved from the gate door. I feel grateful I have one good memory of my last moment with my dad.

Although I feel regret that I didn't reply his message, but I don't have any regret at all about the things I have done while he's still alive. I have been a good daughter to my dad, I've showed him all of my good achievements. I never got in a big trouble that made him worry or disappoint with me. I graduated satisfyingly and then got a good job which made him feel relieve to leave me by myself. So there's nothing I regret about his leaving. The only thing I regret is just I couldn't go home and spend more time anymore with him. I feel like an orphan now.


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14 October 2015

Hangul

Recently I'm really fond of Hangul letters. Hangul is Korean alphabet that usually used to write Korean words. I learnt Korean language for the first time when I was in college. And since then I became fond in anything about Korea. :D Yeah as you can see, mostly what I wrote in this blog has something to do with Korean dramas. Hahaha...

I learnt Korean language from a Korean teacher directly. He's a very kind person, he really loves Indonesia so that's why he stayed in Indonesia for a couple of years with his family. Then during his busyness, he spared one or two days a week to teach Korean language voluntarily to college students who really keen in learning Korean. So me and my friends every week visited his house to study together. It's very fun, sometimes his wife also helped him to teach us a couple of words. And sometimes their cute little son played with us as we learnt some phrases. :D There was a time also when we had some guests from Korean college students, we played together like kindergarten kids while learning Korean language. We were singing together and playing some games 'till evening.

I never had any language lesson as fun as that time ever in my life. So the good feeling about Korea still lingering in my mind up to now.

Anyway, here are a couple of my Hangul handwriting. I used to practice by writing some music lyrics or some nice quotes. It's quite fun doing it since I really like it. :)


엔젤 아이즈 송
(ost Angel Eyes)

7급 공무원 송
(ost Seventh Grade Civil Servant)







"친절함은 귀머거리라도 들을 수 있고 소경도 볼 수 있는 언어이다."

"Kindness is a language which the deaf can hear and the blind can see."

- Mark Twain


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06 October 2015

While There Is Life, There Is Hope


If I could live once again in the future, I would want to be a doctor. :)

Since I was a kid, I always like the hospital environment. I always hope I could get hospitalized so I could get all the hospital services that I had dreamed of. But it never got realized since I never got any serious illness or injury at that time that needed to be hospitalized. Though I really like to be in a hospital, but I didn't have enough confidence to be a doctor because my science grade was not so good. I always got low grades for all science subjects, such as Biology, Chemicals, Physics, and even Mathematics. I couldn't believe it as well because my father was an Alchemist and my mother was a Pharmacist. Both of my parents were science people, but I don't inherit any of their brains. =/ Somehow I turned out to be more talented in social, arts, and language.

Though I never got hospitalized when I was a kid, but I do have some memories being treated in a hospital. The worst case I got into a hospital, was when I had a bad injury on my head that I got from fighting with my younger brother. So that time we had a big fight like cats and dogs, me and my brother were pushing a big chair to each other. It was a such a big chair for elementary kids like us to play around, at the top of the chair there was a sharp carving made of wood. So we're pushing the chair to each other because we're both didn't want to lose the fight, but then I lost my grip and my brother pushed it so hard so the chair hit me from in front, the chair fell down onto me and the sharp carving stabbed right into my front head. I didn't cry when it happened, thankfully I was still conscious and the carving didn't get deeper, so right away with my reflex I pulled it out and saw something coming out. Sounds scary isn't it? It's even scarier when I saw the hole on my head in the mirror, that's when I cried out loud. Then my mom brought me to the hospital, and I got stitched painfully since the doctor didn't put me to sleep. I remember there were a few people holding my hands and legs while the doctor was stitching me, because I was struggling a lot and crying out loud. But after that we went back home since I didn't have to stay in hospital.

A few injuries also happened when I grew up as a teenager, but none of it made me even stay a night in a hospital. I've ever fainted twice, one when I was attending a school ceremony and second one when I was having a small meeting in front of the class room. The first one is quite memorable because my face hit the school field's ground, I could hear people talking to save me a few moments after I collapsed and laid on the ground. Then I could feel a few people were carrying me together to the treatment room. I didn't injure that much, I only got some bruises on my face, hands, and legs. The worst part was my lips, it was bleeding a bit and got swollen later on. But I received people's care and attention that made me feel the pain less.

Then in high school, I've ever sicked once when I got too exhausted due to the tight training schedule of my marching band activity as we're about to enter a championship. I got a typhoid illness and made me have to rest for 2 to 3 weeks. But amazingly it didn't make me stay in a hospital as I was expected for so long. My dad treated me at house, he made some soups that could help the healing process and gave me the medicine day and night. My dad was quite good in treating me whenever I was sick. I didn't know where he learnt the theory on how to treat illness, but his treatments work all the time. I really like his homemade porridge, it tasted good I could even finish one full pot. :)

Anyway, lately I've been following one nice serial movies called D-Day. This movie told about a tragedy of earthquake that caused many people injured in a city. This disaster had caused the medical staffs in a hospital to struggle saving all the victims who got injured. Among those medical personnel, there's one doctor who would take any risks to save the victims no matter what it takes. Unlike other doctors who were so cautious to take the responsibility, Lee Hae Sung was there to carry all the load in every critical case in order to save the patient's life.


I got touched by one scene above when the doctor told his colleague why he saved the patient whereas it was clearly shown that the patient only got a very small chance to live because his injury was terrible and the hospital was run out of medical supplies and they couldn't do any blood transfusion since there's no stock of blood. Then the doctor answered that he would do anything even there's only 1% chance of survival because he's a doctor.

This scene reminds me again of one good doctor who treated me when I was in a critical moment when I had food poisoned about 3 years ago. There's a doctor who visited me at night after I got hospitalized. It's my first time staying in a hospital, finally my wish to get hospitalized came true. But I was all alone since I came by myself without any family when I lived abroad, and I was in an emergency situation to tell my friends about me getting sick at that moment. So this kind doctor visited me while I was sleeping, then I got half-awake a bit after hearing the doctor and the nurse were talking. I heard the nurse said something like "this patient was all alone, no family, the condition was critical", and so on explaining the situations to the doctor. While the nurse explaining, I was still shivering in a cold, I could feel my entire body was a bit shaking due to the cold. Then I remember suddenly the doctor held my right hand for a moment to calm me then rubbed it like... you know when someone pity on you or feel bad on you then they show their caring and sympathy by holding your hand. Not just holding but actually giving their sincere care. I didn't see the doctor's face since I was half-conscious, but I felt all of the caring through the warm hand which holding me that night.

I wish the doctor would be someone like in the movie above, then I definitely would be his number one fan. :)

It was Alexandra Hospital the place where I got hospitalized for the first time in my life. The place where I met the doctor who made me feel cared as a human. All the medical personnel who treated me in that hospital were so nice. They're warm and caring just like a family. There was a kind doctor as well who visited me after I got a little bit better, she talked to me nicely and smiled to me while reminding me not to forget to drink a lot since I lost many fluids. I didn't remember there was someone who has spoken as nice as that in the country since I lived there, and also the nurses treated me so well and never even once being harsh like what we've often seen in the movies. I remember there's a nurse who kept helping me going to the bathroom since I have to carry all the fluids and the medical equipment. If I felt hurt whenever I had to go to the bathroom, the nurse would encouraged me patiently,"hey don't cry, it's okay...".

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I felt thankful while being treated there, it's the first time I feel being taken care of by many people. My friends also visited me while I was there, they're all very kind sparing their time in their busy work life. There's also a friend who stayed all night for me even though I told her to go home since she has to work. I felt really touched by their caring somehow. If I get a chance I will pay their kindness one day. :)

My mom and my auntie also visited me once, they flew right away after hearing the news that I got sicked. I kinda miss my auntie, she was very nice and kind. But unfortunately she already passed away, just a few months after my father's funeral. I feel deeply saddened by her leaving. When I was a kid, I also have a very kind auntie who taught me some handmade crafts. I learned how to paint a shirt and canvas bag, make a miniature from gypsum, and how to make some crafts from paper. She would like to teach me how to bake a Brownies as well, sometimes she told me some stories about her hometown on how nice it was. I always remember the time when I was about to go to a party with my friends, she was there smiling at me and said "have fun!" But sadly one day she got a terminal cancer, I visited her in a hospital with my dad. She looked so pale and weak. I asked her whether it was hurt, then she smiled weakly and said yes it was hurt but it's okay. I still remember it until now how she smiled at me who was still a teenager, not even an adult, but she answered me nicely even though she was sicked. Unfortunately not long after that, she passed away. We all felt deeply saddened by her leaving. Why some nice and kind people I've known left so fast and leave their memories with us? No matter how hard to let them go, I feel very grateful that I could known some nice and kind people like them in my life.

Anyway about a year ago, my mother just got a surgery. It was the first time in my life waiting for someone in a hospital. It felt very different with the feeling when I got hospitalized. When you were there to look up for someone you know who got treated, it felt very uneasy. I couldn't sleep well while waiting there. Right on the day when the surgery held, we're all felt anxious while waiting in front of the operation room. I felt like, "oh so this is how it feels waiting for someone you know getting a surgery". While we were waiting, there was another family as well who waited for their family member in another operation room. I saw their family member once before he's taken into the operation room. I coincidentally saw him in front of the elevator when I was taking a break. He was laying on a bed with eyes weakly open but the gaze was blank. He's not moving at all, only staring somewhere blankly. He got a priority to board the elevator first, along with the medical personnel who accompanied him.

Then after he went upstairs, I boarded the elevator as well going to the same floor as where he would have the surgery. I didn't know before that he was an emergency patient because it didn't appear like it was critical since his appearance was fine and looked so calm for a patient who would get a surgery. Unlike my mother, even before entering the operation room she was so nervous and couldn't calm at all. I just knew later on then what happened to the patient I met in front of the elevator. A little while after we waited, there's a rushing of people coming in and out from the operation room where the patient was taken. The family member who waited there also looked even more anxious than before. The patient's operation room was located right in front of the waiting room, so we could see slightly the activity inside there. Even without explanation, people could tell that the doctors and nurses were struggling there. This panics situation made us feel uneasy as well, because my mother was still having her surgery. Then suddenly after awhile, someone came and talked to the patient's family member. It was silent for a moment and all we could hear was the voice of that person who talked to the family member, but I didn't hear clearly what he said. Then after he talked, suddenly the family members shouted and cried out loud.

Then later on we just knew that the patient whom I met in front of the elevator couldn't make it, he passed away in the operation room. I had no idea at all that I just saw someone who's dying. I couldn't believe it that someone I just met with eyes clearly open and awake, suddenly died in a few minutes later. If I remember it again, I still can't believe it. That day I just learned, so that's how human's life is. It could gone just in a minute.

My mother's surgery went well alhamdulillah, her surgery finished just a few moment later. She has recovered and getting better up to now. While I was waiting for my mother in a hospital after the surgery, I spent some time to look around the hospital building. It's a nice hospital, I like the staff's cafeteria that located down stair. I used to have breakfast there, I loved to hear the medical staffs talking about medical things while drinking my coffee. The coffee served there was fabulous, they would give one medium size pot so we can refill it by our self. Maybe because the staffs there need to stay awake while doing their job, so they would give not only one cup but one pot of coffee. Hehehe.

Coffee Latte ~ or we call it here as “Kopi Susu”
The table cloth underneath really reminds me of my unforgettable school uniform

I see that some people finding it hard to stay around in a hospital. Some are worry to check up their illness, some others are unwilling to see their loved ones getting through the pain, many others are even having it difficult dealing with the medical bills, and some are having a hard time to see their family's gone. But on the other side no matter how hard it is, I can feel the hopes that people keep holding inside, the expectations, the prayers, the willingness to stay alive. This is why I really like to stay around in a hospital, to see people's hopes and their relentless struggle for a life.

Anyone who has one reason to live, he can endure almost all the things.

― Unknown

"However bad life may seem, there is always something you can do, and succeed at. While there's life, there is hope.” 

― Stephen Hawking


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