Significant Other

Sometimes I feel very upset and annoyed so much by married couples. Not because I feel jealous or envy with them who already found the one. But how they treated me that made me somehow very annoyed.

For example when I attended a wedding alone, I noticed that some women tried to shoo me away by looking at me with their sharp stare when they're together with their spouse. Even if it's my own friends. I could feel their fear and anxiety whenever a woman just a meter away from their man. I felt like, hellooo your man is not a Calvin Klein model and I'm not interested anyway with your man even though it's true he's a model. I also have my pride. And I'm not a b**** who likes to seduce man here and there.

To be honest, I feel very insulted with them and it makes me angry. If the case were the man had a crush on me, then it's not my fault right? It's their man's fault why they can like other woman whereas they're already married. And it's not my fault either if I'm pretty, though I never think I'm that pretty anyway. Should I wear a mask then so nobody can look at my face? Huh?? Thanks but I don't want to. It's not my problem, it's your problem having a negative prejudice on others.

Sometimes I noticed as well that if I put a little bit nice profile pictures, the women started to freak out. As if their lover will fall for me right away. Ridiculous isn't it? Well if that's the case, I suggest to all married men not to add or follow any single woman's social media accounts but their wife and their family only.

I feel weird whenever I see this happened. I'm someone who also agree that a married man must not pay attention to other women other than their wife. Nor should look at them. Vice versa with the wife.

I understand why they did that, they merely want to protect their family from any disturbance from outsiders. But should you hurt others for your heaven's sake? Couldn't you be more considerate with other people's feeling? While you're already married and they're single it's already an enough thing to bear alone for them. For me. No need to scrub the pain all over our faces. Otherwise you just want to show off then you'd better go to psychologist to treat that narcissistic cum social personality disorder of yours.

People can be very cruel sometimes when it comes to their happiness. For me who grew up in a broken family, I know very well what pain is. I know how it feels to be hurt by others. I experienced it myself when my family being ruined cruelly. So I feel enough with that suspicious look in people's eyes, I also don't want to be someone who ruin other people's family. Because I know exactly how it feels to be ruined.

It's painful, hurt, suffering, and it lasts for a lifetime. Do you think I'm crazy enough to do such thing? Even if it's a legal polygamy, I will refuse to do it. Do you know what it means when other woman comes in between a married couple? It will be a hell for the first woman.

That's why I prefer to stay away from any taken man, I don't want to have anything to do with them other than professional work only. I also avoided any wedding party nowadays if there's no companion, it's more comfortable that way. Now I know how it feels to be a single woman in their mid life age, hahaa. So this is how it feels.

It's not that I don't want to get married. Who doesn't want to get married? Is there any woman in this world who doesn't want to get married? It's just that I haven't found my significant other. Actually when I was in college, I really wanted to get married as soon as possible. I had a wish to get married after I graduated from college. But unfortunately, nobody proposed me by the time I graduated. Hahahaa....

So here I am, a happy free single lady who can do whatever she wants.

Just wish me luck throughout the year, hopefully I can meet my significant other. I don't want to be forever alone though however. But don't worry I won't screw other people's bond if 'till the end there's no significant sign. Sigh, what a life.

It's getting late now, time to go. Arrivederci!

Just Like A Teenager

Can't help to share this lovely scene from a movie I just watched. So cute :"D

I really like how honest Ji Ahn (the teenage boy) told Song Yi (the teenage girl) that he doesn't have a lot of  money to spend to have a fancy date, but he has some ideas how they can still have fun together even with a little money they have.

In the previous scenes, Song Yi already confessed first that she likes him. Ji Ahn likes her too, but he rejected to date her. He told her he couldn't be more than a friend. But actually it was a lie, he didn't want to go out with her due to his financial state. He didn't want her to suffer dating a guy like him. Moreover Song Yi's economy state is not even better than him. So he thought that it would be better if she meets someone who can take care of her.

Then it took awhile for Ji Ahn to gather his courage, finally, to tell her the reason why. If she's okay to date even it's not a luxurious one, then he would like to go out with her. It's so sweet isn't it, the way Ji Ahn asked her to go out with him. :") Ji Ahn is so cuuutee...... Can't help to adore him, I really like his deep voice. :P Oh no, I feel like a noona fans already. (noona = older sister in Korean)

Actually there's a boy who likes Song Yi too, his name is Yoon Tae Oh. They were friends since a kid. His condition is way better than Ji Ahn. He's rich, handsome, witty, and really care about Song Yi. If she's in trouble, Tae Oh will help her as much as he could. He's always there for her in most of her difficult times. But Song Yi doesn't have any feeling to Tae Oh. So Tae Oh doesn't have any plan as well to date her because he's still want to have fun in his youthful age.

I know dating is not allowed in my religion, unless it's a date after we're married. But I'm sure in our youthful age, we were once ever had a crush on someone, a foolish love, or maybe a first love like in this movie. However, I only want to bring out the good meaning from the scene above. I see this scene somehow tells us the wisdom about happiness. Just like a teenage boy who plainly asks someone he likes to have fun together even only with a little money they have.

By the way, I'm not suggesting teenagers to have a date like this, no no no... Don't get it wrong. :P If you're still a teenager, the best way to have fun is to achieve good grades in school. Don't go out for a date, it's very dangerous. It could ruin your future if you don't have any self-restraint then lose control. It's much better to work hard while you're young, achieve good grades, and get a nice hobby. When you grow up, you can enjoy the result of the hard works you earned while you're still young, then you can have fun as much as you like. ;)

Back to the movie. Actually for a woman, it's better to chose a man like Yoon Tae Oh. Someone who has the ability to take care, and someone who loves her more. That way at least she would not be wasted. If she chose someone like Ji Ahn, she needs to be ready to live a long way of struggling life. There's nothing wrong of living a struggling life, we're all struggling in any way. Many people can still be happy even with the very least of what they have. But if only we're given a choice to choose between the two, choose someone who loves us and has the ability to take care. That's one wisdom I used to heard from married people. Anyway Tae Oh is not bad at all, he's very cute. Hahahaa...

I'm aware as well that love cannot be forced. There are times when we like someone like Ji Ahn in reality. Though he's not perfect, doesn't have much money, still struggling, but out of nowhere we like him. Maybe that's what it called 'chemistry'. It connects people into one big scenario called destiny. It works just like a magnet. But I wouldn't mind if my magnet appears like Ji Ahn. Who would? :D

Anyway, here's the soundtrack from the movie. I keep listening it these days, sounds good. It makes me feel young again. Can you guess which one is Yoon Tae Oh from this video clip?

Beach or Mountain?

Finally the korean drama I've been following these days has reached its final episode. I have posted before the short synopsis here. As expected, the story ended exactly as what I guessed from the first. They're finally getting married and live happily ever after. Yeay!! xD

Don't laugh, haha I know it's so cheesy. But I can't help to like it. x'D Especially the scenes when Choi Won proposed Ha Na. I like the way Choi Won asked Ha Na to get married, his words were so relax and free from any burden that used to be associated with marriage. It's not full of excessive promises nor too much poetic words which giving us headache when hearing it, but rather he's bringing it nicely by asking her to have fun and play with him forever.

This scene makes me remember a psychological test to see whether we're being serious when we're in relationship or not. So one day one of my friend tested me, I know he's trying to figure out what kind of girl I am, hahaha, but I didn't tell him that I know about the meaning of the test. So he asked me, if I were given a choice to choose between mountains and beaches which one that I prefer the most. Then I answered, I like beaches more. Then he got shocked by my answer, hahaa.... Then I explained to him, actually in reality I went to the mountains more frequent than I went to the beaches. I've hiked Papandayan mountain, having a trip to Bromo, Ijen Crater, Dieng Plateau, Ngarai Sianok, and a few more places above the sea level. While I only went to the beaches a few times. It's such a rare chance for me to explore the beauty of seashore, sandy beaches, and the blue water of the sea. So that's why if I have a chance, I would like to explore beaches more and enjoy the warm day with ice coconut drinks. :D

Oh such a paradise, ohohoo.... But actually, in that test if we choose beaches over the mountains, it means that we are a type of person who's not serious in a relationship. Otherwise, if we choose mountains, meaning we're ready to settle down.

Ridiculous isn't it? Hahaha.. :D

These days I've been posting about the topic of love & relationship, but please don't call me pathetic. :p  Actually I'm not in a rush to settle down nor jealous with people who have finally found the one. But I can't deny that I envy it, hahaa... *what's the bloody hell different* 

Anyway I've been thinking these days, I think it's fun to have a foreign spouse whose language is different from me. So I can practice everyday to talk differently, since I'm a bit bored and sick these days with my own country. Ooh my dear, my country is getting worse day by day. The currency rates is terrible compare to dollar, and now we're getting out of stock for beef. The butchers have stop selling beef everywhere, then the fuel price still high, fiuuhh so many things to concern. I've been thinking in moving to UK, South Korea, Singapore or any place that more stable to live in and to have fun of course. Who knows I may find the one there. *I wish* ;P

By the way, a few days ago I just attended my cousin's wedding. And it's very nice to meet other family members whom I haven't seen for a very long time. And the excited part was for the first time I got a proper make up done by a make up artist. Actually it's not the first time, I've got two times getting a make up by a make up artist when I was attended a wedding party as well, but this time is the nicest one that properly done. I really like the result. :)

Do you know what I like the most from wedding party? Beside the nice foods and drinks, I can see people wearing nice clothes. Women wear beautiful dresses and men wear nice suits, people look more decent in nice clothes. But I don't like the after effect when the euphoria ended. Suddenly you feel empty after a bunch of excitements. Just like when we hike a mountain, we'll get too much excitements when we finally reach the peak, but when we continue again the journey the excitements suddenly gone.

That's why I like beaches more than mountains. I like the atmosphere when we go to the beach, people are more relax and free of worries. People tend to enjoy the present time rather than worrying about the future or thinking about the past. To me, I want to have that kind of happiness which allowed me to just enjoy the present moment. So I can be more grateful and useful for others. La dolce de la vita.