Speaker & Masjid

Di dekat rumah saya ada sebuah masjid kecil yang selalu mengumandangkan adzan. Tiap menjelang adzan Maghrib, masjid ini selalu melantunkan dzikir atau sholawat. Terkadang saya suka tersentuh dengan alunan dzikir dan sholawatnya, bahkan saking indahnya bisa membuat saya terharu hingga mata berkaca-kaca. Saya sempat merekam alunannya untuk saya putar lagi sewaktu-waktu.

Berikut alunan dzikir yang sempat saya rekam.

Dzikir Subhanallah Walhamdulillah
Dzikir Allahumma Sholli 'Ala Muhammad

Namun entah kenapa akhir-akhir ini orang yang biasa melantukan dzikir dengan suara yang bagus tidak terdengar lagi. Pelantunnya digantikan oleh anak-anak kecil.

Seperti yang kita tahu, anak-anak memiliki suara yang nyaring dan seringkali cempreng. Suara yang masih belum sempurna seperti ini, entah kenapa diberikan kepercayaan untuk melantunkan dzikir & sholawat yang sifatnya sakral. Bahkan seringkali anak-anak tersebut sambil bercanda dengan teman-temannya dan tertawa-tawa ketika melantunkan dzikir yang seharusnya terdengar indah. Suara mereka yang melengking dan sangat cempreng itu terdengar kemana-mana selama setengah jam hingga empat puluh lima menit sebelum adzan Maghrib.

Bukannya saya tidak suka anak-anak, tapi semestinya para pengurus masjid lebih bijak ketika menentukan siapa yang akan melantunkan dzikir. Apalagi ini bukan sekedar membaca dzikir seperti di majelis pengajian, tapi ini lantunannya menggunakan speaker (pengeras suara) yang nyaring terdengar keseluruh kompleks perumahan dan jalanan. Membiasakan anak-anak untuk berdzikir itu hal yang bagus, tapi memberikan mereka microphone dengan speaker di usia mereka yang belum mengerti bagaimana seharusnya bersikap itu bukanlah hal tepat. Apalagi terkadang mereka juga mengumandangkan adzan.

Sedih bercampur kesal rasanya mendengar suara anak-anak tersebut, karena dengan suara anak-anak yang seperti ini yang terdengar bermain-main, membuat image agama Islam semakin minus dimata masyarakat. Kita hanya memperdengarkan kegaduhan bukan lantunan yang semestinya bisa menyentuh hati tiap orang yang mendengar.

Dulu di jaman Rasulullah Saw., orang yang diberi kepercayaan untuk mengumandangkan adzan hanyalah orang-orang terpilih saja yang memang pantas melantunkan adzan. Yaitu orang-orang yang bisa membaca, mengerti, dan hafal Al-Qur'an, Bukan sembarang orang bisa berada di mimbar adzan dengan pengeras suara.

Mungkin ini salah satu sebab mengapa sempat ada wacana untuk melarang adzan dengan pengeras suara, walaupun memang ini bukan sebab utamanya. Tapi ini bisa dijadikan alasan untuk melarang di kemudian hari. Jangan sampai kita seperti negara sekuler yang sama sekali tidak boleh melantunkan adzan dengan pengeras suara, adzan hanya boleh di dalam masjid saja. Alhamdulillah kita masih diberikan kebebasan beragama dan beribadah.

Mungkin saran saya, jika tidak ada orang yang bisa melantunkan dzikir atau adzan, sebaiknya gunakan rekaman saja. Itu lebih baik dan lebih enak didengar daripada suara anak-anak yang melengking. Ini hanya pendapat saya saja, bisa benar bisa salah. Yang paling benar bisa ditanyakan pada ulama.

Saya jadi teringat dulu sewaktu saya masih kuliah, saya suka sekali menghabiskan waktu di area Masjid Salman. Selain dekat dengan kampus, masjid ini memiliki atmosfer yang tenang. Saya merasakan pancaran energi positif tiap kali berada disana, rasanya hati lebih nyaman dan tenang. Bila mendengar adzan dari Masjid Salman, entah kenapa hati ini rasanya jadi ingin ikut sholat berjamaah. Adzan yang dilantunkan terdengar indah, nyaman dan adem rasanya di hati ini.

Yang saya lihat sangat menarik dari masjid ini, selain fungsi utamanya digunakan untuk ibadah sholat, Masjid Salman juga digunakan untuk mengaji, menuntut ilmu, berkolaborasi, berkreasi, bahkan juga untuk berdagang dan bekerja. Disana lengkap semua kegiatan ada. Benar-benar seperti gambaran masjid di jaman Rasulullah Saw., yaitu masjid sebagai pusat peradaban.

Karena saking sukanya dengan masjid ini, saya sampai punya cita-cita suatu hari saya ingin sekali tinggal di sekitar area yang dekat dengan Masjid Salman. Saya ingin menghabiskan waktu saya disini, saya ingin mendaftar untuk belajar Al-Qur'an, baik tahsin maupun tahfidz. Seminggu bisa dua sampai tiga kali pertemuan. Lalu saya ingin mentoring / mengaji lagi dengan para murobbi yang berwawasan luas tapi tetap rendah hati. Kemudian di akhir pekan saya mau ikut kegiatan ekstrakurikuler yang dimiliki masjid ini, dulu yang saya ingat sempat ada ekskul pencak silat, klub baca, dan lain-lain saya lupa apa saja. Lalu mungkin jika saya masih belum menikah juga, hehe, saya ingin mendaftarkan diri untuk ta'aruf. :")

Tiap beberapa bulan sekali, disana juga suka ada pameran. Seperti pameran buku islami, bazaar, dan lain-lain. Mungkin jika saya masih menggeluti usaha hijab, saya ingin buka stand kecil-kecilan menjual hijab dan perlengkapan muslimah lainnya. Dan satu hal lainnya yang saya suka sekali dengan Masjid Salman, yaitu makanan yang dijual di sekitar masjid maupun di kantinnya enak-enaakkk. Luar biasa, subhanallah banyak sekali berkahnya baik di dalam maupun di luar Masjid ini.

Yah mudah-mudahan, insyaa Allah jika ada umur, rejeki, dan kesempatan, cita-cita saya ini mudah-mudahan bisa terkabul. Aamiin yaa Rabbal 'Alamiin.....

Kembali Pada Ketauhidan

Baru-baru ini saya baru selesai membaca novelnya Habiburrahman El Shirazy yang berjudul "Api Tauhid". Cerita novelnya bagus, saya selalu suka karya-karya dari Kang Abik (nama panggilan si penulis). Tiap ke toko buku, penulis yang kerap kali saya cari bukunya salah satunya adalah beliau. Novel-novelnya selalu dipenuhi dengan wawasan mengenai Islam, dibalut dengan cerita yang ringan namun tetap mengandung nilai-nilai moral sesuai dengan ajaran syariat.

Yang saya suka, cerita-cerita yang disuguhkan kerap kali memiliki latar belakang negara asing dengan detail pemaparan kota, nuansa, budaya, dan penduduk yang ada disana. Tidak jarang terkadang disisipkan bahasa asing dari negara tersebut dalam percakapan di novelnya. Ceritanya tidak hanya menjelaskan hal-hal yang menarik dari negara tersebut, tapi ada makna dan keterikatannya dengan sejarah Islam dan pengaruhnya hingga kini.

Di novel "Bumi Cinta", ceritanya mengambil latar negara Rusia. Lalu di "Ayat-ayat Cinta" mengambil latar negara Mesir. Dan novel yang baru-baru ini saya baca, yaitu "Api Tauhid", mengambil negara Turki sebagai latarnya. Tulisan-tulisan Kang Abik menunjukkan betapa luasnya pengetahuan beliau, mulai dari sejarah, fikih, bahasa, hingga pemahaman mengenai keadaan yang sedang terjadi pada umat di jaman sekarang ini.

Secara garis besar, "Api Tauhid" menjelaskan bahwa permasalahan utama di jaman modern ini tidak lain adalah kita semakin jauh dari agama. Karena itu agar umat Islam keluar dari permasalahan, kita harus kembali kepada ketauhidan, serta menerapkan syariat agama. Dan inti dari segala solusi yang harus kita pegang teguh hingga akhir jaman adalah Al-Qur'an.

Saya ingin mengutip beberapa tulisan di novel "Api Tauhid" yang menurut saya benar-benar menyentuh permasalahan yang sedang umat ini hadapi.

.....Selain mendung hitam yang menggelayuti pikirannya, Kyai Arselan tertuju pada kalimat-kalimat menyentuh dari ulama besar Turki dalam karyanya Al Lama'at yang baru ia baca tadi sore menjelang Maghrib. Itu adalah kitab yang ia beli saat umrah dan mampir di Istanbul, beberapa waktu yang lalu.

Ulama itu adalah Badiuzzaman Said Nursi. Dalam kitabnya Al Lama'at, Badiuzzaman menulis bahwa umat ini harus banyak melantunkan doa Nabi Yunus 'alaihissalam, tatkala berada dalam kegelapan perut ikan.

"Laa ilaaha illa Anta, subhaanaka inni kuntu minazh zhaalimiin."

Dengan penuh keikhlasan, kerendahan hati, pengakuan akan segala dosa, pengakuan akan segala kelemahan, rasa pasrah yang total kepada Allah, Nabi Yunus tiada henti melantunkan doa itu. Menangis kepada Allah dengan doa itu. Mengharu biru kepada Allah dengan doa itu.

"Laa ilaaha illa Anta, subhaanaka inni kuntu minazh zhaalimiin."

Maka, Allah mendengar doa Nabi Yunus, dan membebaskan Nabi Yunus dari perut ikan.

Kyai Arselan masih mengingat sentuhan Badiuzzaman Said Nursi yang mengingatkan, bukankah fitnah yang menyergap umat ini lebih gulita dan lebih pekat dari kegelapan berada dalam perut ikan Paus? Bukankah keadaan umat ini sekarang lebih mengkhawatirkan daripada keadaan Nabi Yunus dalam perut ikan?

Umat yang lemah. Iman yang tercampakkan. Fitnah menyambar siang malam. Serigala-serigala yang kelaparan siap mencabik-cabik. Kebodohan merajalela. Kemaksiatan menyusup di mana-mana menjadi propaganda yang menggiurkan. Umat dilanda kecemasan dan ketakutan tiada ujungnya. Mereka seperti berjalan dalam lorong kegelapan yang sangat panjang dan tidak tahu mana jalan keluar menuju cahaya. Sebagian merasa tahu ke mana melangkah, namun setelah menghabiskan banyak waktu tetap saja berada dalam lorong yang gelap. Kitab suci dan sunnah Nabi seumpama lentera yang mereka pegang tapi tidak dinyalakan. Seumpama pintu keluar yang mereka berada di depannya namun tidak mereka buka. Akibatnya mereka terus berada dalam kegelapan yang pekat dan melelahkan.

Inilah saatnya menanggalkan segala ego, meletakkan diri sepenuhnya sebagai hamba Allah yang memerlukan pertolongan Allah. Saatnya doa dan tasbih Nabi Yunus dilantunkan, diucapkan berulang-ulang, dihayati, dimasukkan ke dalam alirah darah, hingga menjadi cahaya dalam hati dan pikiran. Lalu menjadi cahaya yang membuka cahaya Allah.

"Laa ilaaha illa Anta, subhaanaka inni kuntu minazh zhaalimiin."

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Badiuzzaman Said Nursi menghadiri acara itu. Dia datang dan dielu-elukan hadirin. Said Nursi menaiki mimbar dengan busana khas Khurdi yang masyhur. Penampilannya gagah dan heroik dengan belati terselip di pinggangnya. Said Nursi menyampaikan amanat yang menyihir lautan manusia.

"Sejak zaman azali, kita telah masuk ke dalam perhimpunan umat Muhammad Saw. Tauhid merupakan aspek kesatuan dan persatuan di antara kita. Sumpah dan janji kita berupa iman.

Selama kita bertauhid dan bersatu, maka setiap mukmin harus menegakkan kalimat Allah. Sarana terbesar untuk menegakkan kalimat Allah di masa sekarang ini adalah kemajuan materiil.

Dengan ilmu pengetahuan dan teknologi, kita akan berjuang melawan kebodohan, kemiskinan, dan perpecahan yang tak lain dan tak bukan adalah musuh utama dalam menegakkan kalimat Allah.

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.....Aku telah mempelajari sejumlah pelajaran di sekolah kehidupan sosial manusia. Aku mendapati, bahwa saat ini dan di tempat ini ada enam penyakit yang membuat kita terjebak di abad pertengahan, di saat orang-orang asing, khususnya Eropa, terbang menuju masa depan.

Penyakit tersebut adalah:

Pertama, mewabahnya keputusasaan, yang faktor pemicunya ada dalam diri kita sendiri. Kedua, matinya kejujuran dalam kehidupan sosial politik. Ketiga, suka kepada permusuhan. Empat, mengabaikan tali cahaya yang menyatukan sesama orang mukmin. Kelima, penindasan yang menyebar seumpama penyakit menular. Kelima, perhatian yang hanya tertuju pada kepentingan pribadi."

Lalu Said Nursi menguraikan panjang lebar cara penyembuhannya yang sumber utamanya adalah obat mujarab dari "apotek Al-Qur'an." Penyakit putus asa bisa disembuhkan dengan menghadirkan harapan, harapan akan rahmat Allah. "Janganlah kalian berputus asa dari rahmat Allah." (QS. Az Zumar: 53).

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"Secara umum, Eskişehir ini kota yang kecil yang cantik. Kota ini terletak di tepi Sungai Porsuk yang indah. Dan Eskişehir ini merupakan salah satu kota industri otomotif terkemuka di Turki. Dan bagi Thullabun Nur, kota ini juga yang tidak akan mereka lupakan. Karena jejak keteladanan Badiuzzaman Said Nursi juga ada di sini," Bilal ikut bicara.

"Saya jadi ingat Hadratusy Syaikh Hasyim Asy'ari, seorang ulama besar Indonesia. Yang tetap mampu menggerakan para pemuda dan para santri untuk melawan kolonial Jepang, meskipun beliau di penjara," Fahmi mengambil gelas tehnya.

"Begitulah ulama sejati. Kedekatan mereka dengan Allah membuat suara mereka tidak bisa dihalangi apa pun juga," sahut Hamza.

"Saya teringat salah satu perkataan Ustadz Said Nursi, 'Siapa yang mengenal dan menaati Allah, maka ia akan bahagia walaupun berada di dalam penjara yang gelap gulita. Dan siapa yang lalai dan melupakan Allah, ia akan sengsara walaupun berada di istana yang megah mempesona," lirih Emel.

Mendengar petikan kalimat itu, semua mengucapkan tasbih.

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Favorite Authors

Recently my friend just tagged me in facebook to write 15 authors of my favorite. It's quite fun because these days people in this generation started to forget to read books. So I think it's pretty smart to ask people to write in their status whose their favorite authors are to remind us again there are many authors have written so many good books to read out there. Books are the window to open our mind to see the world.

So here's the list of mine......

My favourite authors :
1. Dan Brown (suka bgt Inferno sama Da Vinci Code-nya)
2. Habiburrahman El Shirazi (bisa bgt ngegabungin novel roman, sejarah, & fikih)
3. Hanum Salsabila Rais (abis baca bukunya lgsg pengen jalan2)
4. Ika Natassa (cerita2nya cosmopolitan bgt, fresh)
5. Erwandi Tarmizi (penulis buku fikih muammalah, jarang yg ahli di bidang ini)
6. Agus Mustofa (bukunya mostly about science and religion)
7. Paulo Coelho (dalem banget tulisannya, alchemist still the best)
8. Sophie Kinsella (novel girly buat yg suka shopping, haha)
9. Pramoedya Ananta Toer (what a legend!)
10. J.K. Rowling (ga pernah baca bukunya, tp suka bgt nonton harry potter)
11. Dewi Lestari (satu2nya yg pernah dibaca baru Madre, tp lgsg suka gaya ceritanya, jd pengen baca semua novelnya dr supernova, petir, rectoverso, dll)
12. Hermawan Kartajaya (Marketing in Venus is my favorite)
13. John C Maxwell (The Right To Lead is a must-read piece)
14. Raditya Dika (buku2nya bs jd teman yg menghibur di saat galau, hahaha)
15. Felix Siauw (bagus bgt buku2 dakwahnya karena disertai grafis2 yg menarik, terutama buku "Yuk Berhijab!" inspiring bgt)

And of course on top of everything, my one and only favorite book all the time, written by The Greatest Author in the entire universe, which I'll keep reading over and over again, insyaa Allah, will always be Al-Qur'an.

:)

So what's yours?

Hangugo (한국어)

Long long time ago, my English teacher told us in a classroom that if we could talk in English in our dream (while we're sleeping) it means that we already mastered the English language. Then after a couple years since my teacher told us that, finally I got the dream! Hahaha, I was so happy believing that I have mastered my English language.

Of course it's not true, hahaa, I still lack in conversation and sometimes got mixed up in using tenses up to now. Hikss.... But one thing I'm certain of, that dream showed that I already into the language and I got the confidence in using it anytime. (even with lots of mistake) *big grin*

So what's the relation with Hangugo? What is Hangugo? Hangugo (한국어) means Korean Language.

As you know, these days I've been very keen about Hangul (Korean Alphabets). If there's a blank paper, I feel like always want to write Hangul. Maybe due to this new habit, yesterday night I got a very absurd dream. I dreamt speaking in Korean languange. :D I remember I said the words :

- 'saram' (사람) means someone

- 'saramdeuri' (사람들이) means people

- and 'banmal' (반말) means informal speech or casual speech

Yayy, does it mean I have really mastered Korean? Hahaha, hopefully... someday... *cross finger*

Here are a couple of my hangul handwriting, my small notebook is now full of my hangul writings, just like an elementary student's assignment book. Very messy, but I kinda like it. :D

writing quotes in Hangul

괜찮아요 (it's okay) & 화이팅! (fighting)

할말이 없어요 (I don't have anything to say)

봤어요 (I saw it) & 이따봐요 (see you later)

착한

한국 나이로 (Korean Age) & 미국 나이로 (American Age)

Native Korean Numbers & Sino Korean Numbers

너는 아직도 내가 알고있는 같은 사람이야
(you are still the same person that I knew)

사람이 꽃보다 아름다워
(a person is more beautiful than flower)

가족 회원들
(family members)

Just Like A Teenager

Can't help to share this lovely scene from a movie I just watched. So cute :"D

I really like how honest Ji Ahn (the teenage boy) told Song Yi (the teenage girl) that he doesn't have a lot of  money to spend to have a fancy date, but he has some ideas how they can still have fun together even with a little money they have.

In the previous scenes, Song Yi already confessed first that she likes him. Ji Ahn likes her too, but he rejected to date her. He told her he couldn't be more than a friend. But actually it was a lie, he didn't want to go out with her due to his financial state. He didn't want her to suffer dating a guy like him. Moreover Song Yi's economy state is not even better than him. So he thought that it would be better if she meets someone who can take care of her.

Then it took awhile for Ji Ahn to gather his courage, finally, to tell her the reason why. If she's okay to date even it's not a luxurious one, then he would like to go out with her. It's so sweet isn't it, the way Ji Ahn asked her to go out with him. :") Ji Ahn is so cuuutee...... Can't help to adore him, I really like his deep voice. :P Oh no, I feel like a noona fans already. (noona = older sister in Korean)

Actually there's a boy who likes Song Yi too, his name is Yoon Tae Oh. They were friends since a kid. His condition is way better than Ji Ahn. He's rich, handsome, witty, and really care about Song Yi. If she's in trouble, Tae Oh will help her as much as he could. He's always there for her in most of her difficult times. But Song Yi doesn't have any feeling to Tae Oh. So Tae Oh doesn't have any plan as well to date her because he's still want to have fun in his youthful age.

I know dating is not allowed in my religion, unless it's a date after we're married. But I'm sure in our youthful age, we were once ever had a crush on someone, a foolish love, or maybe a first love like in this movie. However, I only want to bring out the good meaning from the scene above. I see this scene somehow tells us the wisdom about happiness. Just like a teenage boy who plainly asks someone he likes to have fun together even only with a little money they have.

By the way, I'm not suggesting teenagers to have a date like this, no no no... Don't get it wrong. :P If you're still a teenager, the best way to have fun is to achieve good grades in school. Don't go out for a date, it's very dangerous. It could ruin your future if you don't have any self-restraint then lose control. It's much better to work hard while you're young, achieve good grades, and get a nice hobby. When you grow up, you can enjoy the result of the hard works you earned while you're still young, then you can have fun as much as you like. ;)

Back to the movie. Actually for a woman, it's better to chose a man like Yoon Tae Oh. Someone who has the ability to take care, and someone who loves her more. That way at least she would not be wasted. If she chose someone like Ji Ahn, she needs to be ready to live a long way of struggling life. There's nothing wrong of living a struggling life, we're all struggling in any way. Many people can still be happy even with the very least of what they have. But if only we're given a choice to choose between the two, choose someone who loves us and has the ability to take care. That's one wisdom I used to heard from married people. Anyway Tae Oh is not bad at all, he's very cute. Hahahaa...

I'm aware as well that love cannot be forced. There are times when we like someone like Ji Ahn in reality. Though he's not perfect, doesn't have much money, still struggling, but out of nowhere we like him. Maybe that's what it called 'chemistry'. It connects people into one big scenario called destiny. It works just like a magnet. But I wouldn't mind if my magnet appears like Ji Ahn. Who would? :D

Anyway, here's the soundtrack from the movie. I keep listening it these days, sounds good. It makes me feel young again. Can you guess which one is Yoon Tae Oh from this video clip?

Jae Hyon Si Anak Kucing & Binatang Peliharaan Lainnya

Alkisah ada satu kucing liar betina yang demen banget tinggal di halaman belakang rumah. Terutama pas dia lagi hamil. -__-" Jadi selama masa kehamilan, si kucing betina ini selalu tinggal di halaman belakang rumah sampai dia melahirkan. Dia udah beberapa kali diam-diam melahirkan anak-anak kucingnya di taman belakang. Luar biasa jg si betina ini loh, sekali melahirkan ga cuma satu yg keluar anaknya. Tapi bisa ada 3 sampai 4 anak sekaligus. Dan ga cuma sekali aja ngelahirin, dia udah beberapa kali melahirkan anak2 hasil hubungan gelapnya dengan kucing2 jantan di luar sana yang pernah saya temui.

Nah masalahnya, abis dia melahirkan si betina ini ga langsung pergi. Tapi dia suka bikin heboh satu rumah. Pernah sewaktu-waktu dia diem2 masuk ke rumah ketika pintu terbuka lebar dan tidak ada yg menyadari, lalu membawa serta anak-anaknya yang baru aja dilahirkan dan diumpetin entah dimana. Alhasil kita kelimpungan nyariin dimana itu anak-anaknya diumpetin, karena tiba2 ada suara meong-meong saling bersahutan di tengah heningnya suasana rumah. Bener-bener deh si betina ini, diam2 menghanyutkan. Mana galak banget lagi, tiap diusir malah pengen nyakar. Galakan dia daripada yang punya rumah. -___-"

Setelah bisa kita temukan dimana anak-anaknya diumpetin, sayang sekali ada satu atau dua yang ga bisa bertahan hidup. Entah karena ketemu tikus besar pas diumpetin atau karena kekurangan gizi. Terus ga lama setelah itu, karena saudara2nya ada yang tewas alhasil anak2nya yang lain jadi sedih dan ga lama kemudian mereka juga ikut tewas. Tragis sekaliii, tapi si betina ini pantang menyerah. Ga lama setelah kehilangan semua anak-anaknya, si betina bunting lagi!!

Kali ini alhamdulillah dari sekian banyak anaknya yang lahir, akhirnya ada jg satu yang bisa bertahan hidup. Sisanya kalah oleh seleksi alam. Si anak kucing ini akhirnya saya kasih nama Jae Hyon, sesuai dengan nama aktor favorit saya yang lagi naik daun waktu itu. Hahahaa..... Si Jae Hyon ini lucu bangeeet, warnanya kuning belang-belang coklat. Satu keluarga saya suka manggil dia Si Kuning. Klo mama saya manggil di Si Kalung, karena dia dikasih kalung sama mama saya buat pemanis. Hahaha....

Jae Hyon sewaktu kecil

Waktu si Jae Hyon masih kecil emang lucunya maksimal, rasanya pengen diajak main terus. Tapi pas agak gedean dikit, si Jae Hyon ini mulai annoying. Selalu nempel kemana-mana kita pergi, terus ngeong-ngeong mulu. Rusuh deh pokoknya. Nah suatu hari, si Jae Hyon ini bener-bener ngeselin karena udah mulai nakal suka masuk-masuk ke dalam rumah. Beberapa kali saya pengen buang si Jae Hyon ini keluar biar dia gabung aja sama kucing-kucing liar lainnya di luar sana, siapa tau klo di luar dia bisa dapet makanan lebih banyak dari tetangga-tetangga sebelah atau dari sisa-sisa makanan di tempat sampah. Tapi sama mama saya ga pernah dibolehin, mama saya suka kasihan karena masih kecil. Nah kebetulan waktu itu mama saya lagi ga ada di rumah, si betina mamanya Jae Hyon juga lagi ga ada di halaman belakang. Kebetulan nih saya pikir, langsung aja si Jae Hyon saya bawa keluar terus saya lepas di depan jalan rumah saya.

Kejam juga sih kalo dipikir-pikir, hehe abis nakal banget sih si Jae Hyon ini. Satu rumah suka kesel karena dia suka nempel-nempel kemana aja kita pergi. Tapi entah kenapa malam harinya saya merasa sangat bersalah. Mama saya juga langsung terlihat sedih seharian pas saya kasi tahu kalo si Jae Hyon udah saya buang keluar. Kata mama saya dia seperti mendengar suara ngeong-ngeong si Jae Hyon dari luar. Mungkin Jae Hyon kedinginan :( Duh saya jadi khawatir semalaman itu, mana si betina mamanya Jae Hyon juga terlihat kelimpungan pas balik ke rumah dan ngeliat anaknya udah ga ada. Hiksss... maafkan daku Jae Hyon...... T___T

Hari itu saya bener-bener merasa bersalah, belum pernah saya merasa semenyesal itu sebelumnya. Lalu keesokan harinya saya bangun tidur seperti biasa. Tapi kala itu ada sedikit rasa hampa di hati, hahaa.... Seperti kehilangan belahan jiwa, wkwkk..... Pas saya ke halaman belakang, tiba-tiba ada yang membuat saya terkejut. Si Jae Hyon ada lagi di situuu, hahahaa..... Ternyata dia balik lagi ke rumah dibawa sama si betina mamanya. Kyknya si betina mendengar suara ngeong-ngeong si Jae Hyon di malam hari, lalu keluar nyariin. Untung ketemu, dan entah kenapa dibawa lagi ke rumah saya. Fiuuuh, saya pura-pura kesal di depan yang lain karena si Jae Hyon dateng lagi. Tapi sebenernya dalam hati saya merasa lega juga akhirnya dia bisa balik ke rumah. Hehehee..... *jadi malu, malu-malu kucing* :"D

Jae Hyon dan si betina mamanya

Sekarang si Jae Hyon udah agak besar, dia udah ngerti setelah diajarin dikit-dikit. Dia udah ga suka nempel-nempel lagi kayak dulu. Dan kalo kita lagi makan, dia udah ga pernah bawel lagi pengen ikutan makan. Dia bakal nunggu dengan manis sampai kita selesai makan, baru kita kasih sisa-sisa makanannya buat dia. Yang paling lucu itu kalau kita abis pergi keluar rumah, si Jae Hyon pasti dengan setia menunggu di depan teras sampai kita balik. Nah pas kita udah sampai depan pager, dia langsung nyamperin seperti menyambut kita datang. Hahaa, ngegemesin banget.

Jae Hyon sudah agak besar

Belum lama belakangan ini, si betina mamanya Jae Hyon bunting lagi dan melahirkan anak-anaknya seperti biasa. Anak-anaknya yang baru warnanya abu-abu belang-belang putih. Mirip sama si betina mamanya Jae Hyon. Anaknya ada dua yang bertahan hidup, tapi ga lama akhirnya yang satu mati entah kenapa. Jadi sekarang cuma ada satu yang hidup nemenin si Jae Hyon. Mereka suka main bareng dan akur banget ga pernah berantem.

Sebenernya satu keluarga ga pernah ada rencana buat melihara si anak-anak kucing yang dibawa si betina ke rumah. Tapi karena kasihan dan udah nyaman juga anak-anaknya di halaman belakang, akhirnya sama mama saya dipelihara juga. Pernah sewaktu-waktu ada kucing jantan warna kuning, bulunya tebel banget keren seperti kucing Garfield, tiba-tiba dateng ke halaman belakang rumah. Kayaknya si Garfield ini bapak dari anak-anaknya si betina, karena pas dia dateng dia elus-elus si Jae Hyon dan adiknya. Kita sih seneng-seneng aja klo mereka bisa kumpul bareng sekeluarga di halaman belakang, hahaa, tapi alhamdulillah si betina dan si jantan sadar diri ga mau lama-lama tinggal di belakang. Si betina setelah selesai menyusui dan melihat anaknya udah agak gedean dikit, pasti dia pergi keluar entah kemana. Nanti baru balik ke rumah kalau dia bunting lagi. Si jantan juga, dia cuma dateng sesekali aja, ga pernah sampai nginep seharian. Hahaa, paling cuma mampir sejam dua jam buat ngeliat anak-anaknya abis itu pergi lagi. Ada-ada aja ya kelakuan kucing, kocak juga kalo dipikir-pikir.

Happy Kitty Family
(ada si jantan kucing Garfield, diduga bapaknya si anak-anak kucing)

Sebenernya ini bukan pertama kali keluarga saya memelihara binatang. Waktu saya masih kecil dulu, pas saya masi duduk di bangku Taman Kanak-Kanak (TK), kami pernah memelihara anjing. Waktu itu keluarga saya belum begitu ngerti agama, hehee, jadi entah kenapa orang tua saya memutuskan untuk memelihara dua ekor anjing di rumah. Namanya Blackie dan Lessie. Karena saya masih kecil, saya ga begitu ingat kenangan apa saja yang pernah kami miliki dengan dua ekor anjing tersebut. Tapi seingat saya, mereka ga pernah boleh masuk ke dalam rumah. Jadi cuma boleh tinggal di teras luar rumah saja. Dan dulu ada juga Burung Kakak Tua, tapi saya lupa siapa namanya. Burungnya lucu bisa ngomong, hehe, suka kita gangguin kalo lagi iseng.

Lalu ketika saya udah agak besar, sewaktu saya duduk di bangku Sekolah Dasar (SD) kami pernah memelihara Kelinci dan Iguana. Tapi dua-duanya ga bertahan lama, akhirnya entah bagaimana keduanya tewas ga lama setelah di pelihara di rumah.

Pas saya duduk di bangku SMP, kakak saya memutuskan untuk memelihara Hamster. Tapi ga bertahan lama juga nasibnya.

Lalu pas saya beranjak SMA, binatang peliharaan di rumah semakin variatif layaknya kebun binatang. Hahahaa... Kita sempat punya :
- dua ekor Ayam Kalkun (namanya si Jack & Emma)
- seekor Ayam Betina (namanya Carsini)
- sepasang ayam kampung (namanya Kocar & Kacir)
- dua ekor Bebek (namanya si Kwik & Kwek)
- dua ekor Angsa (lupa siapa namanya)
- dan satu ekor Burung Hantu kecil (namanya Hedwig)

Hahaa, rame banget yaaa. Itu semua dipelihara di halaman belakang rumah. Tiap pagi rame banget suaranya, si ayam pada berkokok sahut-sahutan, si Kalkun juga bunyinya kluk-kluk-kluk-kluk, si bebek & angsa bunyi ngoik-ngoik, dan si burung hantu entah gimana bunyinya ajaib dah pokoknya. Hahahaa, ga ada alarm semerdu mereka kalo lagi sahut-sahutan. Tapi saya paling ga berani megang binatang-binatang itu, yang berani megang cuma mama saya aja. Saya dan yang lainnya sukanya cuma gangguin aja, terutama gangguin si Kalkun. Hehee, kalo udah marah paling lucu soalnya. Janggutnya langsung merah, mukanya jadi biru, dan langsung ngembangin bulu-bulunya kayak ngajak berantem. Hahaa, kocak banget ngeliatnya. Ini dia si kalkun dan si ayam jago yang suka kejar-kejaran.

Si Kalkun & Si Ayam Jago

Si Kwik - Kwek

Sekarang akhirnya dari sekian banyak binatang peliharaan, tinggal dua ekor kucing aja di belakang rumah. Yaitu Jae Hyon dan adiknya yg saya beri nama Lee Sang Yoon. Yah begitulah kisah binatang peliharaan di rumah. Oya sama ada satu lagi, sekarang ada Tokek di plafon rumah yang suka bunyi-bunyi sendiri. Wkwkw...

Oke deh sekian dulu cerita selingan tentang para penghuni kebun belakang yang udah seperti keluarga sendiri. Kapan-kapan cerita lagi kalo ada penghuni kebon yang bertambah. Xixixiii, see yaaa.......

The Last Words

A few days ago I just browsed my old pictures in my mobile phone and I found my dad's last message to me which I screen captured so I won't lose it. I miss my dad a lot :((((( From all of my family members, the one I can comfortably talk to is only my dad. Now I feel really so much lonely, not because I'm all alone. I'm surrounded by many people, but none of them I can talk to. It's very hard to find someone who can understand our mind and have the same way of thinking, also even harder to have someone who would understand what we feel.

My dad texted me on the day he passed away. But I didn't reply it because I was about to meet him again in the next few days. Who knows that it would be his last words to me. Anyhow I feel grateful at least my dad said good bye to me before he really went for good. Actually a week before he's gone, he sent me off to airport. We sat on a bench while drinking coffee. I ordered a bitter coffee due to my diet restriction, but I didn't like it so I gave it to my dad. And he finished it. Then after he finished my coffee, he walked me to the boarding gate. It's the last time I saw him and said my last good bye. All I can remember is he's smiling to me and waved from the gate door. I feel grateful I have one good memory of my last moment with my dad.

Although I feel regret that I didn't reply his message, but I don't have any regret at all about the things I have done while he's still alive. I have been a good daughter to my dad, I've showed him all of my good achievements. I never got in a big trouble that made him worry or disappoint with me. I graduated satisfyingly and then got a good job which made him feel relieve to leave me by myself. So there's nothing I regret about his leaving. The only thing I regret is just I couldn't go home and spend more time anymore with him. I feel like an orphan now.

Hangul

Recently I'm really fond of Hangul letters. Hangul is Korean alphabet that usually used to write Korean words. I learnt Korean language for the first time when I was in college. And since then I became fond in anything about Korea. :D Yeah as you can see, mostly what I wrote in this blog has something to do with Korean dramas. Hahaha...

I learnt Korean language from a Korean teacher directly. He's a very kind person, he really loves Indonesia so that's why he stayed in Indonesia for a couple of years with his family. Then during his busyness, he spared one or two days a week to teach Korean language voluntarily to college students who really keen in learning Korean. So me and my friends every week visited his house to study together. It's very fun, sometimes his wife also helped him to teach us a couple of words. And sometimes their cute little son played with us as we learnt some phrases. :D There was a time also when we had some guests from Korean college students, we played together like kindergarten kids while learning Korean language. We were singing together and playing some games 'till evening.

I never had any language lesson as fun as that time ever in my life. So the good feeling about Korea still lingering in my mind up to now.

Anyway, here are a couple of my Hangul handwriting. I used to practice by writing some music lyrics or some nice quotes. It's quite fun doing it since I really like it. :)

엔젤 아이즈 송
(ost Angel Eyes)

7급 공무원 송
(ost Seventh Grade Civil Servant)

"친절함은 귀머거리라도 들을 수 있고 소경도 볼 수 있는 언어이다."

"Kindness is a language which the deaf can hear and the blind can see."

- Mark Twain

While There Is Life, There Is Hope

If I could live once again in the future, I would want to be a doctor. :)

Since I was a kid, I always like the hospital environment. I always hope I could get hospitalized so I could get all the hospital services that I had dreamed of. But it never got realized since I never got any serious illness or injury at that time that needed to be hospitalized. Though I really like to be in a hospital, but I didn't have enough confidence to be a doctor because my science grade was not so good. I always got low grades for all science subjects, such as Biology, Chemicals, Physics, and even Mathematics. I couldn't believe it as well because my father was an Alchemist and my mother was a Pharmacist. Both of my parents were science people, but I don't inherit any of their brains. =/ Somehow I turned out to be more talented in social, arts, and language.

Though I never got hospitalized when I was a kid, but I do have some memories being treated in a hospital. The worst case I got into a hospital, was when I had a bad injury on my head that I got from fighting with my younger brother. So that time we had a big fight like cats and dogs, me and my brother were pushing a big chair to each other. It was a such a big chair for elementary kids like us to play around, at the top of the chair there was a sharp carving made of wood. So we're pushing the chair to each other because we're both didn't want to lose the fight, but then I lost my grip and my brother pushed it so hard so the chair hit me from in front, the chair fell down onto me and the sharp carving stabbed right into my front head. I didn't cry when it happened, thankfully I was still conscious and the carving didn't get deeper, so right away with my reflex I pulled it out and saw something coming out. Sounds scary isn't it? It's even scarier when I saw the hole on my head in the mirror, that's when I cried out loud. Then my mom brought me to the hospital, and I got stitched painfully since the doctor didn't put me to sleep. I remember there were a few people holding my hands and legs while the doctor was stitching me, because I was struggling a lot and crying out loud. But after that we went back home since I didn't have to stay in hospital.

A few injuries also happened when I grew up as a teenager, but none of it made me even stay a night in a hospital. I've ever fainted twice, one when I was attending a school ceremony and second one when I was having a small meeting in front of the class room. The first one is quite memorable because my face hit the school field's ground, I could hear people talking to save me a few moments after I collapsed and laid on the ground. Then I could feel a few people were carrying me together to the treatment room. I didn't injure that much, I only got some bruises on my face, hands, and legs. The worst part was my lips, it was bleeding a bit and got swollen later on. But I received people's care and attention that made me feel the pain less.

Then in high school, I've ever sicked once when I got too exhausted due to the tight training schedule of my marching band activity as we're about to enter a championship. I got a typhoid illness and made me have to rest for 2 to 3 weeks. But amazingly it didn't make me stay in a hospital as I was expected for so long. My dad treated me at house, he made some soups that could help the healing process and gave me the medicine day and night. My dad was quite good in treating me whenever I was sick. I didn't know where he learnt the theory on how to treat illness, but his treatments work all the time. I really like his homemade porridge, it tasted good I could even finish one full pot. :)

Anyway, lately I've been following one nice serial movies called D-Day. This movie told about a tragedy of earthquake that caused many people injured in a city. This disaster had caused the medical staffs in a hospital to struggle saving all the victims who got injured. Among those medical personnel, there's one doctor who would take any risks to save the victims no matter what it takes. Unlike other doctors who were so cautious to take the responsibility, Lee Hae Sung was there to carry all the load in every critical case in order to save the patient's life.

I got touched by one scene above when the doctor told his colleague why he saved the patient whereas it was clearly shown that the patient only got a very small chance to live because his injury was terrible and the hospital was run out of medical supplies and they couldn't do any blood transfusion since there's no stock of blood. Then the doctor answered that he would do anything even there's only 1% chance of survival because he's a doctor.

This scene reminds me again of one good doctor who treated me when I was in a critical moment when I had food poisoned about 3 years ago. There's a doctor who visited me at night after I got hospitalized. It's my first time staying in a hospital, finally my wish to get hospitalized came true. But I was all alone since I came by myself without any family when I lived abroad, and I was in an emergency situation to tell my friends about me getting sick at that moment. So this kind doctor visited me while I was sleeping, then I got half-awake a bit after hearing the doctor and the nurse were talking. I heard the nurse said something like "this patient was all alone, no family, the condition was critical", and so on explaining the situations to the doctor. While the nurse explaining, I was still shivering in a cold, I could feel my entire body was a bit shaking due to the cold. Then I remember suddenly the doctor held my right hand for a moment to calm me then rubbed it like... you know when someone pity on you or feel bad on you then they show their caring and sympathy by holding your hand. Not just holding but actually giving their sincere care. I didn't see the doctor's face since I was half-conscious, but I felt all of the caring through the warm hand which holding me that night.

I wish the doctor would be someone like in the movie above, then I definitely would be his number one fan. :)

It was Alexandra Hospital the place where I got hospitalized for the first time in my life. The place where I met the doctor who made me feel cared as a human. All the medical personnel who treated me in that hospital were so nice. They're warm and caring just like a family. There was a kind doctor as well who visited me after I got a little bit better, she talked to me nicely and smiled to me while reminding me not to forget to drink a lot since I lost many fluids. I didn't remember there was someone who has spoken as nice as that in the country since I lived there, and also the nurses treated me so well and never even once being harsh like what we've often seen in the movies. I remember there's a nurse who kept helping me going to the bathroom since I have to carry all the fluids and the medical equipment. If I felt hurt whenever I had to go to the bathroom, the nurse would encouraged me patiently,"hey don't cry, it's okay...".

image source : http://brightsparks.com.sg/profile/jhs/alexandraHospital.php

I felt thankful while being treated there, it's the first time I feel being taken care of by many people. My friends also visited me while I was there, they're all very kind sparing their time in their busy work life. There's also a friend who stayed all night for me even though I told her to go home since she has to work. I felt really touched by their caring somehow. If I get a chance I will pay their kindness one day. :)

My mom and my auntie also visited me once, they flew right away after hearing the news that I got sicked. I kinda miss my auntie, she was very nice and kind. But unfortunately she already passed away, just a few months after my father's funeral. I feel deeply saddened by her leaving. When I was a kid, I also have a very kind auntie who taught me some handmade crafts. I learned how to paint a shirt and canvas bag, make a miniature from gypsum, and how to make some crafts from paper. She would like to teach me how to bake a Brownies as well, sometimes she told me some stories about her hometown on how nice it was. I always remember the time when I was about to go to a party with my friends, she was there smiling at me and said "have fun!" But sadly one day she got a terminal cancer, I visited her in a hospital with my dad. She looked so pale and weak. I asked her whether it was hurt, then she smiled weakly and said yes it was hurt but it's okay. I still remember it until now how she smiled at me who was still a teenager, not even an adult, but she answered me nicely even though she was sicked. Unfortunately not long after that, she passed away. We all felt deeply saddened by her leaving. Why some nice and kind people I've known left so fast and leave their memories with us? No matter how hard to let them go, I feel very grateful that I could known some nice and kind people like them in my life.

Anyway about a year ago, my mother just got a surgery. It was the first time in my life waiting for someone in a hospital. It felt very different with the feeling when I got hospitalized. When you were there to look up for someone you know who got treated, it felt very uneasy. I couldn't sleep well while waiting there. Right on the day when the surgery held, we're all felt anxious while waiting in front of the operation room. I felt like, "oh so this is how it feels waiting for someone you know getting a surgery". While we were waiting, there was another family as well who waited for their family member in another operation room. I saw their family member once before he's taken into the operation room. I coincidentally saw him in front of the elevator when I was taking a break. He was laying on a bed with eyes weakly open but the gaze was blank. He's not moving at all, only staring somewhere blankly. He got a priority to board the elevator first, along with the medical personnel who accompanied him.

Then after he went upstairs, I boarded the elevator as well going to the same floor as where he would have the surgery. I didn't know before that he was an emergency patient because it didn't appear like it was critical since his appearance was fine and looked so calm for a patient who would get a surgery. Unlike my mother, even before entering the operation room she was so nervous and couldn't calm at all. I just knew later on then what happened to the patient I met in front of the elevator. A little while after we waited, there's a rushing of people coming in and out from the operation room where the patient was taken. The family member who waited there also looked even more anxious than before. The patient's operation room was located right in front of the waiting room, so we could see slightly the activity inside there. Even without explanation, people could tell that the doctors and nurses were struggling there. This panics situation made us feel uneasy as well, because my mother was still having her surgery. Then suddenly after awhile, someone came and talked to the patient's family member. It was silent for a moment and all we could hear was the voice of that person who talked to the family member, but I didn't hear clearly what he said. Then after he talked, suddenly the family members shouted and cried out loud.

Then later on we just knew that the patient whom I met in front of the elevator couldn't make it, he passed away in the operation room. I had no idea at all that I just saw someone who's dying. I couldn't believe it that someone I just met with eyes clearly open and awake, suddenly died in a few minutes later. If I remember it again, I still can't believe it. That day I just learned, so that's how human's life is. It could gone just in a minute.

My mother's surgery went well alhamdulillah, her surgery finished just a few moment later. She has recovered and getting better up to now. While I was waiting for my mother in a hospital after the surgery, I spent some time to look around the hospital building. It's a nice hospital, I like the staff's cafeteria that located down stair. I used to have breakfast there, I loved to hear the medical staffs talking about medical things while drinking my coffee. The coffee served there was fabulous, they would give one medium size pot so we can refill it by our self. Maybe because the staffs there need to stay awake while doing their job, so they would give not only one cup but one pot of coffee. Hehehe.

Coffee Latte ~ or we call it here as “Kopi Susu”
The table cloth underneath really reminds me of my unforgettable school uniform

I see that some people finding it hard to stay around in a hospital. Some are worry to check up their illness, some others are unwilling to see their loved ones getting through the pain, many others are even having it difficult dealing with the medical bills, and some are having a hard time to see their family's gone. But on the other side no matter how hard it is, I can feel the hopes that people keep holding inside, the expectations, the prayers, the willingness to stay alive. This is why I really like to stay around in a hospital, to see people's hopes and their relentless struggle for a life.

Anyone who has one reason to live, he can endure almost all the things.

― Unknown

"However bad life may seem, there is always something you can do, and succeed at. While there's life, there is hope.” 

― Stephen Hawking

Beach or Mountain?

Finally the korean drama I've been following these days has reached its final episode. I have posted before the short synopsis here. As expected, the story ended exactly as what I guessed from the first. They're finally getting married and live happily ever after. Yeay!! xD

Don't laugh, haha I know it's so cheesy. But I can't help to like it. x'D Especially the scenes when Choi Won proposed Ha Na. I like the way Choi Won asked Ha Na to get married, his words were so relax and free from any burden that used to be associated with marriage. It's not full of excessive promises nor too much poetic words which giving us headache when hearing it, but rather he's bringing it nicely by asking her to have fun and play with him forever.

This scene makes me remember a psychological test to see whether we're being serious when we're in relationship or not. So one day one of my friend tested me, I know he's trying to figure out what kind of girl I am, hahaha, but I didn't tell him that I know about the meaning of the test. So he asked me, if I were given a choice to choose between mountains and beaches which one that I prefer the most. Then I answered, I like beaches more. Then he got shocked by my answer, hahaa.... Then I explained to him, actually in reality I went to the mountains more frequent than I went to the beaches. I've hiked Papandayan mountain, having a trip to Bromo, Ijen Crater, Dieng Plateau, Ngarai Sianok, and a few more places above the sea level. While I only went to the beaches a few times. It's such a rare chance for me to explore the beauty of seashore, sandy beaches, and the blue water of the sea. So that's why if I have a chance, I would like to explore beaches more and enjoy the warm day with ice coconut drinks. :D

Oh such a paradise, ohohoo.... But actually, in that test if we choose beaches over the mountains, it means that we are a type of person who's not serious in a relationship. Otherwise, if we choose mountains, meaning we're ready to settle down.

Ridiculous isn't it? Hahaha.. :D

These days I've been posting about the topic of love & relationship, but please don't call me pathetic. :p  Actually I'm not in a rush to settle down nor jealous with people who have finally found the one. But I can't deny that I envy it, hahaa... *what's the bloody hell different* 

Anyway I've been thinking these days, I think it's fun to have a foreign spouse whose language is different from me. So I can practice everyday to talk differently, since I'm a bit bored and sick these days with my own country. Ooh my dear, my country is getting worse day by day. The currency rates is terrible compare to dollar, and now we're getting out of stock for beef. The butchers have stop selling beef everywhere, then the fuel price still high, fiuuhh so many things to concern. I've been thinking in moving to UK, South Korea, Singapore or any place that more stable to live in and to have fun of course. Who knows I may find the one there. *I wish* ;P

By the way, a few days ago I just attended my cousin's wedding. And it's very nice to meet other family members whom I haven't seen for a very long time. And the excited part was for the first time I got a proper make up done by a make up artist. Actually it's not the first time, I've got two times getting a make up by a make up artist when I was attended a wedding party as well, but this time is the nicest one that properly done. I really like the result. :)

Do you know what I like the most from wedding party? Beside the nice foods and drinks, I can see people wearing nice clothes. Women wear beautiful dresses and men wear nice suits, people look more decent in nice clothes. But I don't like the after effect when the euphoria ended. Suddenly you feel empty after a bunch of excitements. Just like when we hike a mountain, we'll get too much excitements when we finally reach the peak, but when we continue again the journey the excitements suddenly gone.

That's why I like beaches more than mountains. I like the atmosphere when we go to the beach, people are more relax and free of worries. People tend to enjoy the present time rather than worrying about the future or thinking about the past. To me, I want to have that kind of happiness which allowed me to just enjoy the present moment. So I can be more grateful and useful for others. La dolce de la vita. 

Beyond What The Eyes Can See

A week ago I just read a very touching article about a woman who has survived from a fire disaster. Almost 60 percent of her body burned severely, even she had to lose her fingers both right and left hand. But what I found incredible in this incident is that she doesn't give up and drown in misery. She continue her life, keeps on going through the difficult times, though her outer physical will never be the same anymore.

Finding the fact that she was a model, named Turia Pitt, made me adore her fighting spirit even more. But there's something more amazing that I read from the news, that made my heart melt into pieces.

Turia Pitt before the incident

She has someone who stayed beside her even her appearance has changed totally. Before she got into this incident, she has a boyfriend that she dated. From the story that she told in the video below, her boyfriend didn't left her since day 1 after she got burned. He accompanied her going through the difficult times and still stay beside her until now. I'm amazed in the fact that he didn't break up with her after the incident. When a man dated a model, he must be attracted with her outer physical, such as her beauty face, good shape of body, etc. And every single man in this world has a physical desire, which cannot be put aside, in need of a woman who can fulfill his needs. Moreover in the modern lifestyle nowadays, especially in western culture, where free lifestyle is happening, man needs a beautiful and healthy woman to be with him. But amazingly, he didn't leave her behind. Nor scared of seeing her outer appearance after being burned.

Here's the article that I read :

Australian ex-model Turia Pitt suffered burns to 65 percent of her body

The Australian ex-model Turia Pitt suffered burns to 65 percent of her body, lost her fingers and thumb on her right hand and spent five months in hospital after she was trapped by a grassfire in a 100 kilometre ultra-marathon in the Kimberley. Her boyfriend decided to quit his job to care for her recovery. Days ago, in an interview for CNN they asked him:

“Did you at any moment think about leaving her and hiring someone to take care of her and moving on with your life?”

His reply touched the world:

“I married her soul, her character, and she’s the only woman that will continue to fulfill my dreams.”

Source: Daily Mail
Picture: Richard Dobson

Turia Pitt with her boyfriend

Turia Pitt's telling her story at radio station

Turia with her boyfriend, have gone through the difficult times

She told her struggling story here :
http://fridaymagazine.ae/real-life/turia-pitt-i-was-healed-by-love-1.1363235

See as well her full story and documentary video here :
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2996539/We-thought-gone-Family-feared-inspirational-burns-survivor-Turia-Pitt-DEAD-stopped-breathing-surgery-new-nose.html#v-3679234238001

News when the incident happened :
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2137279/Australian-ultramarathon-runners-scarred-life-2011-bushfire-evidence-race-organisers.html

And follow her facebook here to see her recent activities  :
https://www.facebook.com/turia.pitt


Somehow I rarely find this kind of amazing story in my own country. Beautiful story like this usually comes from overseas. Or maybe it's just me who are outdated from reading domestic news in my country. What I can easily find these days in my hometown are the news of celebrities getting divorced or a pious scholar got polygamy. It's not that I'm expecting that much of a beautiful romance story to hear, nor against polygamy, but I'm just wondering why it's very hard to find a good man like this. :D

How wonderful isn't it looking at their pictures together, despite the religion, good and bad, and other barriers that might be on the way. If I were to asked whether I can look at someone beyond what the eyes can see, big probability I'm not be able to do so like this man does. That's why I think it's very hard to find someone like this nowadays who can see beyond what the eyes can see and going through what the mind can accept.

But somehow I'm sure deep in each and everyone's heart, we want to be loved not because of our physical appearance, our family background, financial state, or our social status. Even myself, I want somewhat to be loved because of my soul, my heart, my personality, and who I really am. Not because of how pretty I am, how religious I become, or how successful my work is. But on the other hand, I'm not confident enough to say that I have a good soul, a good personality, or a good character that worth to be loved. I know how complicated myself is that people may finding it hard to understand.

So in order for people to understand us, somehow we have to be able to show that we are worth of love. And from what I learnt, it can only be obtained if we are able to fulfill people's expectations, for example people like to see someone who is well groomed, has achieved high education, has certain work in promising field or industry, well mannered, friendly, has wider knowledge, a good believer, etc etc. Somewhat we are expected to push our own limits to extent the possibility of being loved sincerely, as a reward of our struggling hardships. When we have finally checked all the criteria based on our standard and preferences, then there where our heart and soul may start to open and accept.

Though the theory said that love can go through any barriers, even time and space, but we cannot disregard the fact that unconditional love between strangers can only happened when the basic requirements has been passed through. Unless the love of a mother to her child, love still required a settled condition to grow well. and love itself could change as the time goes by doesn't it?

Anyway, knowing the story of Turia Pitt made me realize how lack of gratitude I am all this time. I forgot how to be thankful to Allah SWT who blessed me with so many good things more than I deserved... Thank you Yaa Allah, you still let me live until this moment and giving more than I ever asked, thank you for the perfect body You have given me while out there many people are lacked of.

I will do my best to be a better person that I could be.... So I am worth of love and sincerity like this person has showed us.

"Everyone dies, but not everyone lives".  - David Mesnard (master freediver)

Opposite Best Friend

Since last week, I got a very bad cough. And yesterday it kept me awake all night, I couldn't sleep well due to the cough. So I decided to wake up and do something else in the middle of the night.

When I woke up, I remembered I was curious about something, not so important but I kinda bit interested to find out. Recently I've been following another Korean romantic drama, and I really like the story and the actor who played it. The film brought me back to the times in my younger age when I had some romantic moments that made my heart fluttering and my stomach filled with a bunch of butterflies. The feeling when we're in love kinda thing that I had again when I was watching "The Time That I Loved You".

The story is about two best friends, a man and a woman, who have been together in a good friendship for 17 years but not yet realized nor admitted they have feelings for each other. It's kinda cheesy story, I know... ;D that over and over reproduced in a movie. But somehow watching it again doesn't feel that bad, it's quite nice to watch. Since it's a very light topic which people often easily find it as well in real life.

Actually, I'm one of a few who find it hard to believe that men and woman can be best friends. One of them must have a feeling for the other, or even both of them could have feelings for each other. How can a man and a woman just having a casual relationship without getting attracted for so long? Though I know maybe out there it could be possible, but I won't naively believe it since I never have a male best friend. Hahaa....

Back to the drama, when I really like the character in any movie that I watched, I will start googling about the real actor who played it. I want to know further how is the real character of the actor, is he really as charming as his character in the drama? Is he as nice and as handsome as it seems on screen? What kind of person he is actually? So from this I would like to decide whether I'm going to admire him further or just leave it be in the movie only. Hahaa, don't mock me for this.

So my curiosity ended up after I watched "Strong Heart" variety shows, episode 125 and 126 where the real actor, Lee Jin Wook, who played the drama showed his real character. I couldn't stop laughing all night when I watched this two episodes, it's really funny and silly to hear about the actor's life stories.

Strong Heart Ep.125

Strong Heart Ep.126

From this variety shows, rather than his real love stories it's more interested to hear about his friendship that has been occurred for 10 years with his best friend which is also an actor, Kim Ji Seok. Both of them are admirable and handsome, I really envy their friendship that could lasts for years and still close until now. They said they did everything together from shopping, travelling, eating, enlisting military, sharing schedule, even living together. People in the variety shows even misunderstood their close friendship, they thought both of them were gay, hahahaa.... But it's not true, they clarified it in the end. Lee Jin Wook said "I think aside from kissing we did everything" x'D *LOL*

Lee Jin Wook and Kim Ji Seok

Shopping together

From what I saw, they have opposite personality. Jin Wook oppa is more calm, stiff, persuasive, and serious. While Ji Seok oppa is wittier, funny, talkative, easy going, and cheerful. This might be an advantage for both of them, so they can complete each other as best friends. Oh how nice isn't it to have someone you can share everything with in your daily life. I envy you both oppa! :D

Okay, it's getting very late and I'm so sleepy. Time to sleep.... *yawn*

Last but not least, let me share this two soundtracks below from the drama. I really like it. It's very nice to hear, it brings back the good memories again. Especially when we're in love... :)

Kyuhyun (Super Junior) - The Time We Loved (우리가 사랑한 시간) 

Suzy (Miss A) - Why Am I Like This (왜 이럴까)